Minus One.

Well, I'm back to the single life and my mom said; "THAT'S OKAY!" And as hard as it has been this last week or so, those two little words have helped me throughout this whole process. To keep a level mind, to think of the eternal perspective or the big picture and although I really feel true sorrow, honest to my core, I know that, THAT'S OKAY! The feelings of; loss, hurt, and real grief got to be so overbearing that I finally broke down and just sobbed and cried to my mom for a good amount of time over the phone, the whole time she was just so supportive and
loving of my decision and one of the hardest decisions I've had to make in a long time. And although the decision was necessary it still hurt a great deal, and was sad and scary. It's days and times like these that the little things are so important and eventually they really turn into the big things that keep us alive. An unexpected card from my sister who I'm sure sent it before she knew what happened but arrived with good timing, A sunny day, A diet coke from my roommate, a long talk with a good friend, and all the love and support that I've felt from all of those near and far. People say; 'It's not the end of the world!' but it was the end of that world that I shared with him and it was a hard end. I'm still not over it and have my moments of weakness still, but I know that That's okay. Now to just let time do its healing thing...

Mother May I...

This is one of my favorite pictures that I have of my parents and I. It's hanging above my bed and follows with me to every place that I move. It reminds me of the love that my parents and I have for each other and what it took for them to be mine and I to be there's.
My mom and I have a special relationship, she has become one of my best friends and I tell her everything and anything but it wasn't always like this though. There were the days of slamming doors, silent treatments, and much more that I put my mother through, but through it all my mom stood by my side and always had my back. Although I am not with her everyday anymore I know she is just a phone call away. She's always there for me to share my joys, to comfort me when I'm sad and to hold my hand through the good times and the bad. I love you mom very much.